Cerberus | Chapter 8: The Glades

September 28, 2019

I easily identified Pastor Hughes’ elegantly simple formula for creating feel-good emotions in us. He had stoked and then quelled our anxiety in the name of God.

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Cerberus | Chapter 7: Cerberus at Church

September 21, 2019

Had I trained my students to cut out feelings until the heart went numb? Were my faculty colleagues doing the same thing to their students? Were we manufacturing ministers who created corpse cold Sunday services?

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Cerberus | Chapter 6: The Door

September 14, 2019

I had spent most of my life learning how to avoid feelings of empathy, compassion, and caring because they were neglected or attacked. Then I cried for six months.

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Cerberus | Chapter 5: Loveable?

September 7, 2019

“I was born in New Jersey,” I said. “I am American, and so are my parents. But I have always known that `Sue’ is not my real name. See that tree over there? We could refer to that tree as `Sue’ if we wanted to. But that’s not its real name.”

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Cerberus | Chapter 4: Mom’s Cerberus

August 30, 2019

I seemed to have found a door, opened it, and entered into a part of herself never before disclosed to me. I had entered the place where she spent most of her life: the room guarded by the sculptured, mourning bodies she carved to block the dark entranceway to her heart. 

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Cerberus | Chapter 3: Mr. C

August 23, 2019

Within a very short time, I was booking hundreds of Hollywood celebrities and celebrity intelligentsia for my show because of the way I set it up: as a glimpse into their emotional heart.

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Cerberus | Chapter 2: The High Priest of Anxiety

August 16, 2019

I spent most of my free time holed up in Dad’s booklined study. This dense space is where I first met the pagan beast. I felt free as a monk in his cell after the day’s duties were completed. The dark matter of the universe was now as close to the monk as his thoughts.

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Cerberus | Chapter 1

August 10, 2019

Cerberus is the “hound of Hades,” the multi-headed dog in Greek mythology that guards the gates of the Underworld and prevents the shades of deadened feelings, like compassion, caring, and empathy, from taking permanent leave, lest they get slaughtered again.

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Today’s White Niggers | Part 10: Love Beyond Belief

March 16, 2019

The demand for economic justice isn’t enough to unite America’s niggers for common cause. The broken, ravaged, and terrified parts of our souls must be healed. Spiritual practices can comfort and heal terrified souls.

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Today’s White Niggers | Part 9: The Luminous Darkness

March 9, 2019

America creates dark feelings in whites. These dark feelings can be transformed into a luminous darkness that can mend racially-ravaged hearts. The shining light of this luminous darkness is unconditional love.

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