Cerberus | Chapter 14: The Love Revolution

November 15, 2019

Love is a tasteless emotion for pod people. In 1970, Cerberus sent me into the streets as a black woman mad as hell. I was suffering inside me but hadn’t the words, the ideas, or the temperament to face my suffering and acknowledge it.

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Cerberus | Chapter 13: Racking Focus

November 9, 2019

The racking focus thought-experiment began with a favorite story I loved to recount about my life. After recounting the story, I racked focus to see what got overlooked.

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Cerberus | Chapter 12: Cerberus Suffering

November 1, 2019

The role and function of my ego kept changing like a single story with many endings. My ego began as the rule maker, then became my guardian, and finally my prosecutor.

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Cerberus | Chapter 11: Chew On This

October 22, 2019

For most of my life I could not tell the difference between my thoughts, emotions, and sensations for one basic reason: my ego refused to help me out. The details of my experiences and discovery follow but with a traveler’s advisory note. Proceed with caution.

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Cerberus | Chapter 10: Cerberus Speaks

October 13, 2019

I had spent years studying Western philosophers who described what happened when they turned their attention in on itself. Now I had to become the active agent rather than the passive reader. So I created my own exercise.

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Cerberus | Chapter 9: St. Paul A.M.E.

October 6, 2019

Thanks to these ongoing experiences in this church, I found what I didn’t know I was looking for until it showed up inside me, namely, an inner sense of being an adored and deeply communal self.

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Cerberus | Chapter 8: The Glades

September 28, 2019

I easily identified Pastor Hughes’ elegantly simple formula for creating feel-good emotions in us. He had stoked and then quelled our anxiety in the name of God.

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Cerberus | Chapter 7: Cerberus at Church

September 21, 2019

Had I trained my students to cut out feelings until the heart went numb? Were my faculty colleagues doing the same thing to their students? Were we manufacturing ministers who created corpse cold Sunday services?

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Today’s White Niggers | Part 9: The Luminous Darkness

March 9, 2019

America creates dark feelings in whites. These dark feelings can be transformed into a luminous darkness that can mend racially-ravaged hearts. The shining light of this luminous darkness is unconditional love.

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